Around 2 months in Comox, 2 weeks in Thailand, 3 weeks in Korea.
It has been busy and tight. I got sick. It was good time to take a rest.
For 3 days in bed, it was very lonely. I realized I couldn't do anything. He did it everything, I want to restart again. My English is still not good enough, my confidence is not enough the fulfillment of my dream. I felt, but he is still with me.
By accident I have seen Bora Shin's story about her God which touched me a lot. She is doing for her. What am I going to do? What did I lost about it?
I should find the faith again. He did it for me everything in my life. Just doing for him and me. Don't pretend it is good. I want to hear it they can see God through my life. It is getting close or I am getting feel it is here.
What am I suppose to do?
Just trust him in all my heart and mind. As I did it when I was a kid.
1. Pray.
2. Don't be lazy in the morning.
3. Do it right away.
4. Do exercise.
God,
I can't do anything. Please use me, as I prayed to you, I would like to be your doer of your love. I know I can't do it, I am lack of warm. I don't want to think about others. Please be in my thoughts and behavior. You know my thought more than me. You created me. As you created me, I would like to like that how you did it. Please be with me specially during the lent. I have so many plan. Sorry I didn't put you the first. I hope you are proud me. I hope you can use me. I will try do my best for you. Please use me.
In Jesus name,
Amen.
